Kudos to you if you're reading my very first blog post and thanks, it makes me feel loved. Which at the moment does not feel like I have a lot of right now. So you ask why have I started a blog? Because for one thing I really just wanted something that I could use to vent and document my life, kind of like a journal or diary (hence the name of my blog). I'll warn you right now though, I do not have the greatest grammar skills. I'm hoping through my blogging adventure I might even make friends along the road who can relate to me in some way.
Who am I you ask? My name is Brandee Leavitt and I am 23 years old? I kind of forget now since it's no longer socially acceptable to ask people their age after high school. We'll just say I'm 23 or 24 but I'm pretty sure 23. I have 2 kids, a little girl (2 yr old) named Scarlett and a little baby boy named Graysen. Yes I am that cliche' mom who had a theme (colors) to their names and I don't care what anyone thinks. My oldest; Scarlett is a sassy independent little girl who tests my patience every second of every day but I still love her with all my heart. Then there's Graysen who has been an angel baby since birth (I'm waiting for that to change). The father of these 2 cute kids is also my husband and I love him beyond measure. We are literally crazy about one another, I could go into so much back story on that but I'll save that for future posts. Or maybe I'll just keep ya guessing.
My little family and I recently just moved here to Mankato MN for Summer sales which has been going alright considering this is my husband's first Summer ever doing sales. We have been here now for a little over a month now? We got here April 22nd I believe. I stay home with the kids while my hubby goes out for the entire day selling. As you can imagine I get pretty lonely even though there are other wives here as well. We are all in the same apartment complex so you'd think we would get together all the time, which we did in the beginning. I know a lot of you probably are just thinking I need to stop complaining and appreciate that I am able to be home with my kids, don't get me wrong I am extremely grateful and blessed but you go a little crazy when your only social interaction is with a 2 year old and 4 month old. I would love to help my husband bring in some money but I absolutely will not leave my kids with people I barely know, I've heard too many stories of that going wrong. That's just me though! If you have someone you can trust to watch your kids then that's awesome, this is just what works for me and my family.
Being here in Minnesota has been ok, like I said earlier I spend most my days at home with the kiddos while Caleb goes out and sells. I am beyond grateful for a husband that provides and has always been ok with me being at home with the kids.
As I've been home with the kids it has definitely been a humbling experience, there are other wives here but I definitely get the vibe that they don't like me. Such a frustrating thing being a girl, you know there's an elephant in the room but you can't bring it up because you'll look like a crazy person and then nobody will want to hang out with you. Or you'll just sound dumb when you bring it up because it's so childish sounding. Let's just say I get left out a lot, there's too much to explain and not sound like a crazy person by the end of it. Why is it so hard making friends as adults? Is it because we naturally read into things too much? We are quick to judge? Slow to trust? I wish I understood why these girls don't want to be my friend. I know I should just get over it and move on but it's hard to do that when I truly don't have any friends. That's so embarrassing to admit but so true. Being a young mom is so hard, I'm not financially stable, I don't quite know my purpose in life, I'm trying to still have friends all while trying to be an adequate mother to kids I do not deserve. I sound like such a whiner but like I said, this is my way of venting. Life can be so difficult, we are a species that can never be satisfied. Except kids, they always seem to be content with what they have no matter how much or little they've got. It's a shame we can't have more innocence like that in today's world, it sure would be a happier place.
Well I have reached the point in my post that I'm not entirely sure what to say next. So I guess I'll just end it here. I think I will do a post every week and just update everyone on what I did that week... who are we kidding, it's more just a place for me to keep track of my memories and nobody will actually read this.
Who am I you ask? My name is Brandee Leavitt and I am 23 years old? I kind of forget now since it's no longer socially acceptable to ask people their age after high school. We'll just say I'm 23 or 24 but I'm pretty sure 23. I have 2 kids, a little girl (2 yr old) named Scarlett and a little baby boy named Graysen. Yes I am that cliche' mom who had a theme (colors) to their names and I don't care what anyone thinks. My oldest; Scarlett is a sassy independent little girl who tests my patience every second of every day but I still love her with all my heart. Then there's Graysen who has been an angel baby since birth (I'm waiting for that to change). The father of these 2 cute kids is also my husband and I love him beyond measure. We are literally crazy about one another, I could go into so much back story on that but I'll save that for future posts. Or maybe I'll just keep ya guessing.
My little family and I recently just moved here to Mankato MN for Summer sales which has been going alright considering this is my husband's first Summer ever doing sales. We have been here now for a little over a month now? We got here April 22nd I believe. I stay home with the kids while my hubby goes out for the entire day selling. As you can imagine I get pretty lonely even though there are other wives here as well. We are all in the same apartment complex so you'd think we would get together all the time, which we did in the beginning. I know a lot of you probably are just thinking I need to stop complaining and appreciate that I am able to be home with my kids, don't get me wrong I am extremely grateful and blessed but you go a little crazy when your only social interaction is with a 2 year old and 4 month old. I would love to help my husband bring in some money but I absolutely will not leave my kids with people I barely know, I've heard too many stories of that going wrong. That's just me though! If you have someone you can trust to watch your kids then that's awesome, this is just what works for me and my family.
Being here in Minnesota has been ok, like I said earlier I spend most my days at home with the kiddos while Caleb goes out and sells. I am beyond grateful for a husband that provides and has always been ok with me being at home with the kids.
As I've been home with the kids it has definitely been a humbling experience, there are other wives here but I definitely get the vibe that they don't like me. Such a frustrating thing being a girl, you know there's an elephant in the room but you can't bring it up because you'll look like a crazy person and then nobody will want to hang out with you. Or you'll just sound dumb when you bring it up because it's so childish sounding. Let's just say I get left out a lot, there's too much to explain and not sound like a crazy person by the end of it. Why is it so hard making friends as adults? Is it because we naturally read into things too much? We are quick to judge? Slow to trust? I wish I understood why these girls don't want to be my friend. I know I should just get over it and move on but it's hard to do that when I truly don't have any friends. That's so embarrassing to admit but so true. Being a young mom is so hard, I'm not financially stable, I don't quite know my purpose in life, I'm trying to still have friends all while trying to be an adequate mother to kids I do not deserve. I sound like such a whiner but like I said, this is my way of venting. Life can be so difficult, we are a species that can never be satisfied. Except kids, they always seem to be content with what they have no matter how much or little they've got. It's a shame we can't have more innocence like that in today's world, it sure would be a happier place.
Well I have reached the point in my post that I'm not entirely sure what to say next. So I guess I'll just end it here. I think I will do a post every week and just update everyone on what I did that week... who are we kidding, it's more just a place for me to keep track of my memories and nobody will actually read this.
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